Sunday was my one year smoke-free. It's weird, because this time I seem to have quit cold turkey, where as before all the stop-smoking aids failed me. I went from smoking 1.5 packs/day, to zero, and it worked. It's also weird because it's around the same time that i'm starting to detox myself and get back into shape, which is more ironic then weird, I suppose, as I didn't plan it that way. So I guess I get to reward myself with a new piercing/tattoo soon :)

Magic has always been the one constant in my life, from the very moment I first picked it up. That's part of the allure of it; that it's an escape mechanism at times. Everybody has times in their life when they just can't seem to stop thinking about something: their family and the dramas they cause, how much they hate their job, you know, the everyday stresses. But for me, I can slip into "deck building mode" with hardly any effort, and then my thoughts (my only thoughts), are of magic, which doesn't stress me out. Overall, it's helped me keep my sanity over the years.

.... you can call me a geek for my love of the game, but it's touched me on a level that most people can't even comprehend. That's both sad and comforting, which is also why i obsess over every little detail about it.

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It's designed to break you. Your mind, your body, your spirit, if you are doing it right, they will all be stricken down and demolished. And that's when you pull yourself up after the 9 weeks, realizing that it didn't beat you. That's the reward, the knowledge that behind you lies a broken man, and before you lies...... something above that man you were. Faster, stronger, more potent.

I can't wait. It starts June 30th. Stay tuned.

I wish I could go back and be who I was.


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yup, i'm home.

zomg three days from now, I'm meeting my musical idols. In person. Holy fuck!

Dear Ontario Government,

If you take my dog away from me, there will be blood. Much, much blood.

Love,

Joe

Quickly becoming my favourite new band. They remind me of milkshakes. Actually, that's a lie. They do not remind of milkshakes. BUT! I really want a milkshake right now, so I guess everything reminds me of milkshakes. Like this keyboard i'm typing on. It seems that every letter key I look at says "milkshake button" for nothing more then a brief moment as my eyes pass over them. This is, in fact, not the case clearly, since it would require quite the small font to be able to type "milkshake button" on such a small surface as a keyboard key.